Shit

Well this is funny because I legitametly am be going to post about shit.

I shitted in my pants today. Yup, you heard it.

So the story went a little like I overestimated the time it would take for my laxatives to take effect resulting in me having to hold in my shit for 1hour as I wait for the bus and go home. While walking home it gave way and yup. Watery gooey mess.

IM A MESS

And well I basically ran out of laxatives AND money. I was stressing about whether I should go out to buy more laxatives but then 

1. I'm broke

2. It's late

3. I will have to skip school and I can't afford to.

Reason why I can't afford to is because there is a learning journey tomorrow and it will be tested in my o levels and I can't afford to skip that. I mean yeah not like I would have any friends or sort to hang with but stilllllll it's tested. Additionally, I have biology practical tomorrow and well my bio practical exam is this Friday and it is the OFFICIAL one so obviously I can't afford to miss that too right????

But I'm feeling fat and all... 

However, I still came to the conclusion that I will not go out to buy because I can't afford to skip any more school. And well I'll just buy it tomorrow. Besides my body needs a break from laxatives right? And one day for the weight to go back up is ok right..? I'll still be able to lose it in the days to come right?

I just remembered that on Tuesday I have another learning journey which means I might not be able to take more laxatives tomorrow because It'll cause me to need to shit in school. And the learning journey on Tuesday is to this island, I'm NOT going to be shitting in some unknown island..... URGH I HATE STRESSING OUT AND FEELING ANXIOUS ABOUT STUPID THINGS LIKE LAXATIVES AND TIMING. 

Why do I have to be so fat and have no self control at all? If I was thin I wouldn't have to rely on laxatives for a almost flat stomach....... 

But I guess this 2 days break from laxatives will be good for my body. 

Promise I'll take a break from laxatives for the next two days. But I'll still buy them tomorrow if I can manage to find some money. 

Wish me luck on my way to being skinny while I'm such a a fatass. 

Picture of a bloated and fat me for you guys while I cry.