I mean, if even anyone is reading?
Whatever, that's not the point. The point is, I've been eating so much lately and having such horrible body images. I just feel like dying.
I ate popcorn today, I also had this sudden crave and need for economic rice and sushi. So fml. I made nuggets and sausages and ate biscuits. I'm just an uncontrollable fatass that needs to stop wasting space.
I hate how people always lie about someone else's physique. Just be honest, I'm fat tell me that. I have a love hate relationship with my haters. They tell me the brutal truth but at the same time bring me down so cruelly. Maybe that's good, a reminder that I don't deserve to be here and how horrible I am.
Birthday dinner at grammas this sat, I know I'm going to overeat because it is grammas. I just hope I can control myself.
Oh I think my class is having pizza on Friday, I'll just make a dumb excuse that I have something else on so I can escape it. I mean I don't even have real friends.
Talking about friends, what would you do if someone you thought understood you and would always be there for you just left? I did nothing, I just let it happened, she said nothing is wrong but I think she is hiding it. Whatever the reason though, I shan't be sad over it. I mean I deserve it, deserve to be a loner because I'm just a freak. She constantly leaves me out, goes to class first and everything. Well whatever, life is just unfair like this. Anyways I got to focus on my studies and try to do well. I'll work on my social skills some other times.
I hope I wasn't this fat. Going to exercise later. Well duh, I'm a fatass.
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