3rd

So yup this is my third post. I actually have no idea what I want to post. I'm posting about my story some other time. But for now it'll be little snippets and updates of my life.

Honestly at this point of my life, I have no idea what I have been doing, wait in fact why do I even exist. I have been feeling so down the weather and basically alienating myself from everyone in school. So like now, I believe I am literally a social pariah. Like people stop talking to me for god knows what reasons and I don't bother to talk to them. Really what's the point of living when I'm no longer living it?  

Tomorrow is meet the parents, my results are horrendous. Failed both my sciences and additional maths. Placed 4th in class from the back, and 131 in level. How is it someone as stupid as me can exist? Why aren't I smarter? I feel like I've been a huge disappointment, not only to my parents but especially myself. But who cares about them, if they weren't so stupid maybe I wouldn't be so stupid.  Shut up mom, stop fucking nagging. Can't you see I'm so fucking annoyed and depressed now. You're just like everyone else, not caring about my feelings, you don't care about me. I'm just someone to fuck with and scold at. 

Anyways, on the bright side of everything I have been successfully losing weight. 39kg now, can't wait to wake up 38.+ tomorrow. Also I'll be going to bake at my friend's house tomorrow. Hopefully I won't start binging and everything.

Note to self: don't fucking eat everything you see. Don't eat so much. Don't eat till you're guilty(wait I'm always guilty anyways) 

Abruptly ending my post here, don't have any quotes because tumble didn't post up anything nice. Shall put in one of my quotes written above though

What's the point of living when you're no longer living it?

No idea how to link it to my tumblr from my phone so... Just copy and paste ok?

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